The equation governs the life of most people with MS. Right now, I know that I am in a great place. I know I am lucky: I have a wonderful partner, amazing friends and relatives, a job I love. But despite this knowledge, I feel down.
Because my energy level has run low.
I usually pay very close attention, a bit like a stingy accountant: I am only allowed to give out energy if I have good reserves.
However, over the last two months I tended to overspend. Flying to Amsterdam to shoot videos, then driving to Portugal for a one week yoga for MS retreat, back to the south of Spain to pack, driving through Spain and France to move to the South of England, unpacking and getting organised here… I am now in the red!
And although I am absolutely amazed at how swiftly everything went and feel blessed by all the opportunities I am given, I cannot fully enjoy it. The lower part of my body is numb. The upper part is aching. The back of my head aches as if someone just hit me with a baseball bat.
So what do you do?
Do you say “I’m happy” although inside you feel pretty low? Do you say “I’m down” although you know you are not really really down?
I think the best is not to say anything but to RESTORE your energy! I only do restorative yoga at the moment. But I also enjoy reading, having a bath (not too hot otherwise it makes me tired) without feeling guilty!
Ps: I am not sure whom to credit for this photo as it was used by many… But i thank the one who took it!